IN MY HEAD.

The big D word. NO, not DICK but DEPRESSION. Okay, the lack of the first D could lead to the second D but we're not talking bout that. Everyone suffer from depression at some point of their life. Some made it through, some has scars (physical or mental) to remind them while some just don't couldn't take it and decide to end it (their life). Depression may be described  as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Most of us feel this way at one time or another for short periods. True clinical depression is a mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, loss, anger, or frustration interfere with everyday life for weeks or longer. There are lots of factors contributing to depression but the most common ones would be the lost of someone close and feeling lost in life. Major depression happens when you feel and see symptoms of extreme sadness, hopelessness, lack of energy, irritability, trouble concentrating, changes in sleep or eating habits, feelings of guilt, physical pain, and thoughts of death or suicide

When someone tells you that they are depressed, it is no joke. No one should take a person saying they are depressed as a prank or a joke. Most of the time those you goes around saying they are depressed are those that needs an ear or two to listen or comforting. The ones who choose to suffer in silence are the more serious ones. You wouldn't know they are depressed until something really bad happen and by then, it is too late. The happiest people are the ones suffering deep inside out of their own torment. Everybody goes through depression and it wouldn't hurt to know a thing or two about it.

MAJOR D:

- Major depression, one of the most common forms of depression. The sufferer seems to walk around with the weight of the world on his or her shoulders. He or she seems disinterested in becoming involved in regular activities and seems convinced that he or she will always be in this hopeless state. There is a lack of interest in just about everything.

SITUATIONAL D:

- Also called adjustment disorder, situational depression is triggered by a stressful or life-changing event, such as job loss, the death of a loved one, trauma and even a bad breakup. It’s about three times more common than major depression, and medications are rarely needed — that’s because they tend to clear up over time once the event has ended. However, that doesn’t mean it should be ignored: Symptoms of situational depression may include excessive sadness, worry, or nervousness, and if they don’t go away, they may become warning signs of major depression.

ATYPICAL D:

- Atypical depression is a variation of depression that is slightly different from major depression. The sufferer is sometimes able to experience happiness and moments of elation. Symptoms of atypical depression include fatigue, oversleeping, overeating and weight gain. People who suffer from atypical depression believe that outside events such as success, attention and praise control their mood. Atypical depression can last for months or a sufferer may live with it forever.

PSYCHOTIC D:

- Sufferers of psychotic depression begin to hear and see imaginary things - - sounds, voices and visuals that do not exist. These are referred to as hallucinations, which are generally more common with someone suffering from schizophrenia. The hallucinations are not "positive" like they are with a manic depressive. The sufferer of psychotic depression imagines frightening and negative sounds and images.

DYSTHYMIA D:

- Many people just walk around seeming depressed; simply sad, blue or melancholic. They have been this way all of their lives. This is known as dysthymia, a condition that people are not even aware of but just live with daily. They go through life feeling unimportant, dissatisfied, frightened and simply don't enjoy their lives. Medication is beneficial for this type of depression.

MANIC D:

- Manic depression can be defined as an emotional disorder characterized by changing mood shifts from depression to mania which can sometimes be quite rapid. People who suffer from manic depression have an extremely high rate of suicide.

The treatment or the cure for depression simply lies in our own mind. Saying it is easier than trying to get it done as most depression comes from pressure within society and also with the state of the world now. Talking to a friend might help but most friends wouldn't know what to say and about 80% wouldn't understand what you are going through but if talking it out makes things better for you, then go ahead with it.

I've been in a depressive state for 8 months now and it has its high and low. On some days, you feel things are going to get better while on some other days, you just feel knocked down and completely helpless. When you try to relate to friends, no one understands. They would probably think it's a joke because for someone who is always the class clown, the center of laughter and the one with all the playfulness, it is almost impossible for you to be depressed. Nothing is beautiful no matter how much people tell you that the world is beautiful when you are depressed. Everything angers and irritates you. You feel sensitive to words and you lash back at just about everyone.

Here's a funny case, been there done that, TRUE STORY;

Was going through BEFRIENDERS' website couple of months back and browsing through to look at the symptoms of depression and considering I was in a depressive state of Stage 4 out of 5, I decided to give them a call just to talk it out. It was 11pm and no one picked up even when the website says "Available 24-hours, 7-days a week". It got me laughing because now I can make a joke out of it. Thank God I wasn't in Stage 5, else I would've been dead (Stage 5 is suicidal mode).